Itts like I’m fighting for air. All of this is making it hard to breath
I just had like 6 slices of pizza. What’s wrong with me?!!! Why would I even order it right now?! Or in general?!!!! I’m so upset at myself. I was at 134 lbs this morning. If I kept up, I would have for sure been 130/129 by this weekend. Fml. Fmlllll. Ugh. Ok u know what, I’m going to detox and make tea right now. Then I’m going to study for Hatkoff. Then I’m going to write 6 pages single spaced of my paper. Coptic problems with race. American probs with race. How it /minority / racial structures effects health care and I’m going to do 500000 sit ups then pray and sleep. Thank u god for everything.
Love. I want to wear an outfit like this and have a bomb toned body and be comfortable wearing shorts!!
Today was great. I’m seriously so happy and thankful for my body. I’m glad that I’m 119 pounds and that I’m toned and have an amazing body! Thank you God!
So I woke up, worked out for two hours-it kicked my butt but I feel so good! Then I showered and then got my nails done with my mom, sister and Marty I’m so happy. God is soo good. Everything has worked out and talked out with the girls, I’m living the dream and doing what I love and building an empire of a beautifully successful career, and everyone is happy. You don’t understand how good it feels to be able to buy your parents a mansion and their dream cars, and everything they want. You don’t know how food it feels to lift the burden of debt and bills and money in general from them. My parents get a long wayyyy better now and my dad loves and respects my mom really good and treats her great now. They don’t have to worry about money and they workout and eat healthy everyday. My dad is healthy and has lost weight and actually cares about his health. So has Chris. He’s losing a lot and doing excellent in school now.
So it’s good, u know? I have my own place in LA and I’m there when I have a lot of work, when I’m going out, hosting, etc. But I stay with my parents a lot/ as much as I can, bc it makes them and really, all of us happy. I thank God every second of the day for getting my music sold, for giving me a great writing job on a movie, for letting me produce and direct and be part of the creativeness. For letting me model and be a public figure. For giving me the amazing success and multiple million dollar- almost billion dollars that I have. God is good.
He is too good.
Thank you God. Thank you ya baba shenouda. Thank you.